My horoscope

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My horoscope is like a laser beam, a kite and a cross at the same time. Almost all aspect lines leads down to one place: Chiron. But also notice that Chiron is right smack dab on Algol, the fixed star of Medusa. The best description of Algol I have ever found was this blog post on Virgovault. Go right here to read it, if you want more info on the most malevolent star in the system.

Chiron is something in us that will never truly heal.
My Mom's Moon is conjunct my Chiron.
Her jelousy, control, anger and emotional coldness have cut me into pieces SO many times in my life I can't begin to describe it. On one hand she is the one that really knows me. She sees me. But in the narcissistic way of doing this... you have to walk a very thin line before the boat tips to the other side and you are stuck with a controlling, manipulating and very weak woman who tries to take control of you as well. Luckily my mom has never been anything like the craziness-spawning Donald Trump - more like a covert version of a person with narcissistic traits. But still - the pain just keeps on coming - from her neglect of my feelings as to a general incompetence in being emotional emphatic or present in my life. I was 35 years old before I realized the pattern in my life... how my mom's inaction or way of behaving have acted as an emotional trigger or roller coaster in my life.

But my Sun-Venus-Jupiter triple conjunction - even with their opposition to Chiron, can also bring a lot of healing my way, by using it to create. Using the cancer energy of the 4th house, and my Taurus senses, as well as my 6th house Cancer to CREATE my own healing by ... being creative. By being loving to myself and nurture myself and my senses in nature, with healthy food, and creating a home where soft furniture and dimmed light creates a sensual space for secluded creativity on my own terms. Being in MY home is a healing experience in itself, if surrounded by nature, silence, animals and a peaceful air.

This is how the healing can manifest with this Chiron-position. Chiron, Algol, Jupiter and Venus can be incredibly creative. Even though, I have to watch how this pain will overflow into my life, and my career, if I am not choosing well regarding to work places.
Through my life I have had a lot of different bosses - and workplaces. I have learned the hard way what I value in a manager and I have strived for what felt RIGHT. Felt GOOD. And walking away when it didn't. Gut feelings are SO important with Algol and Chiron.

I have had the best homes when my stomach was happy and in peace when visiting the place. And I have had the worst/crappiest homes when I didn't pay attention.

Gut feeling are really, really essential with this Chiron-placement, in work/career as well as my own home. I get my sense of self worth from what I can do in my home, and I have struggled a lot the past years with e.g. cooking. Before 2012, cooking was the love of my life - I blogged about it, I experimented, I dined and everything in between. But then my life turned upside down, and I found myself loosing all love of cooking. Ever since then I have struggled to regain my love and trust in my abilities for food, since this. And I am slowly coming into it. But it's going to take one teeny-tiny step every day, regaining my equibrilium and my lust for life in food. But I'm getting there. The signs are getting better and better as to how to handle my allergy to dairy products as well. I am working towards a goal, and I will reach it one time into the future. Laser focus, right? Us Scorpios are known for it, so I am quite sure I will reach it some day.